A loy of things happened recently. some news that i just heard of. old fear that is still inside me. sometimes i feel that i get my priorities wrong somehow. i'm like chasing stuff and abandoning the important things in life. living in ignorance. yeah.. i grew up with the rules that i've been taught. become a person that i am today. somehow i dont like it. its like i'm so obsessed that i become oblivious to anything else. surprise at what i'm thinking and what i'm feeling. surprise at how i am easily overcome by someone and now i regretted for not standing up for my rights and told him off. i'm thinking about a lot of things but somehow i juzt dont know how to say what i'm exactly thinking off.
going for op on monday. then its lots of rehab for me. but was it worth it? someone said something to me recently that made me think about it. what i know is i wanna play nx year. but while i'm working hard for netball, will i repeat the same things again?

living in ignorance. oblivious to everything else.