although my journey to A levels has already started, tommorrow marks the start of my first real test. test to gauge how much i know and test to show how much more i have to conquer. guess over the next 3 weeks, it will be a roller coaster ride for me. know i had to deal with this. this prelims, for me will just be a warm up for the A levels. going to just do what i can. tommorrow will be gp followed by practicals. then after the hols, it will be the start of my other papers. sian. no playing! its so much different. that time, i can still go for nike and i only stop training quite late. this time its quite different. i can still go out, have fun. this time i dont know. its so much more taxing i guess. and its sort of determines your future, like wat inky said. its scary that i have to think about my future. what i want to do with my life. making the right decisions. choices. i look at my youngest brother and my baby cousin, they are like so carefree, happy doing what they are doing, playing, being themselves and not care about what others think, dont have to make important decision which will affect your path of life. i guess thats how you are when you are young. people can stay young forever. they cant be like peter pan although sometimes i wich i could be. but this is reality. its so much different.
tommorrow will be the first huge step towards As. it will be interesting to see how the first paper turns out. hard or easy- it doesnt matter.